Delano

My little ticker up there got a little close to home today.

It's a fellow student, no I've never met her, no I don't even know who she is, but it's in the back of my head.

Man my dad is loosin it, he didn't know what today was, I told him to take a rest. If not he's asking for it, if ya know what I mean.

School was.....Ok, wasn't my best of days. I'm lost half the time and don't know what the hell in the world I'm doing anymore. I feel like my life is a giant soap opera, haha I guess that's good for me. I still have to do a balloon car thing for IPC, I'm tired and bored, and pist off so I'm a real bitch right now. I keep thinking about things I shouldn't think about so that really drives me down bad!!

Get out my head!!
Get out my head!!
Get out my head!!
Get out my head!!
Get out my head!!


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Dash-Dash-Dash

I sit here, alone.
I won't forget that thing.
Triple-Dot-Dash-Dash
That thing that was always there.
Now it's gone.

El Camino Real

^^^ doesn't sound so peaceful? Man I really want a damn vacation.

I spent half my day out near the Heights, me and a friend of my mom's went out to Farmer's Village or whatever out on Airline, so we went into this store called, "Canino's," man, no offense but there where so many white people there, I was like,"There's white people here!!" I thought ya know that there would be a bunch of mexicans like me out there, but there wasn't.

It's gonna rain the until Thursday, that sucks, and it's gonna be cold to, damn that scks.

Someone take me to Gal

IM BORED

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Old Rusty

My week is finally over, I'm probably gonna have a pretty boring weekend, my dad has to work again and so get to miss Mardi Gras, damn, he works to damn fucking hard, he gets up and drives around 50 miles to where he has to go and then doesn't get home until late as hell, and then leaves so damn early in the morning. I don't even know why he works at that damn plant, they've had two fire within the last year, a bomb threat, and two accidents, he said in one of the accidents some guy got blown way 200ft. I never get to see him anymore which sucks I guess. What do I mean, I guess, it does.

I suck, I've been asleep since 5 this afternoon and just woke up around 10, I was so tired I could just sleep and never wake up. I mean I look worse than a stoner, it's crazy. Half my friends are being weird, oh man I know where there going in their lives, I feel like my life is this giant soap opera, only in that high school, I'm starting to hate that school, damn stoners, school is like in one of those movies where everything goes so wrong , that's the way it is there and only at that school. I wish I would of stayed in Houston, but at the same time I can I have fun I don't know why but it's weird.

I can't spell worth a shit I embarrassed the shit out of my self at school, we doin this essay in health, I misspelled Bobby!!!!

"...get away from Booby."

I put that I couldn't believe it and I showed to the teacher, ahhh I was so embarrassed. Thank GOD for spell check.

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I Live...

I wake up and I see the sun.
I wake up and I see my life.
I wake up and I come here.


To fulfill my dreams.
To friends.
To my second family.
To learn to one day do this.


I see this...when I go home


Home is where I belong.
Home is where I see the dark.
I wake up and live.
Because I live here.....

...Houston

Love Divine

I wake up and I see you.
I work and I see you.
I cry and I see you.
You haunt my every thought.
You haunt my every dream.
Your there, somewhere in the shadows.
Your there, even when I don't see you.
Your there, even when I betray you.
Your there, even when I look down on you.
Your there, even if I doubt you.
Your there, wherever I go.


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Unconditional Love

Have I told you how much I love my obnoxious family, I promise they can drive you crazy! Really they drove me half way to Beaumont yesterday, but I still love them!! My, my, what a way, but hey, I just back from the judging meeting, I did ok for a first timer. I'm tired, so good night!

Oops, I forgot to publish this, haha.

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He didn't make it.

Pressure Point

My dad has been working to hard, he doesn't get home until like 9 know then he has to get up real early like at 4, I still have that funky feeling inside me, it's been driving me crazy these past few days. I was at my grandma's house most of Sunday, so it was kool I guess. I don't why I'm up this late it's someone pulled a switch inside me and it won't go off. My aunt is going to come over later so I guess we'll go somewhere, she's going to California to see, my other aunt and some of my cousins. I'm looking forward to going to school, so I hope tomorrow will be good. That's all to say for now.


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Fly Away

I still have a weird feeling inside me, I don't know how to describe it. I don't want to be at home at school but at the same time I want to go. I can't keep a friend worth a shit now, what the hell do I do?

Right now everything sucks.
Right now I'm tired and wanna give up, but I've made it this far and I ain't stopping.



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Friday

I've had this horrible feeling all day, it started last night, I don't what it is I hope to God it's nothing bad. I just feel mixed up right now, and I don't know what to say. I have a shitload of homework so I'll be busy, my dad gonna get something to eat YEAH! I always feel like fuck things up between my friends, teachers, family, it's like the things I do something they give me the evil eye or something and never talk to me again, ya I like to have fun, it's my only way to live right now, it's just go out and have fun, I mean I can be good person but people don't know the fun wild side of me, cuz if not, just bored, I'll just get bored and bitchy, and pissed, and if i'm pissed you better run.

I said that three hours ago and he's still not home.
It's 11:06


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Stand Up

Just back from my judging meeting, it was cool I guess, so I'll be back next week, dought I'll judge at HLS&R, but oh well I still have next year. I wanna go to the movies this weekend, I haven't been in a long time, don't think anyone will take me. My life ain't all shitty, I still wanna be a paramedic, I think it's such a cool job, I saw that show on TLC a long tome ago, ever since then I was like I gotta be one, LOL. I'm not getting a pig for next year, so that kinda sucks, I would of liked a steer though.

Tomorrow's Friday!!

"You can get all the friends in the world, if you just be yourself."

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Superior

School is just weird now, I don't even know shit from shit know, I'm just in my own little world I guess, haha. My friend finally got computer fixed, LOL, so we've been talking. I'm home alone waiting for my dad, maybe he'll come home before I go to sleep. My aunt came over, her and my mom went to a funeral, it's the ditzy aunt if you don't know. I feel traumatized and think I might of been, I don't of what though, I have flashbacks and nightmares, ya know the regular shit. But I'm still here that all that I would care for. Tomorrow is the FFA judging meeting so I guess I'll be there.

I wanna go HOME.

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Red Crush

Big Red.
That's what I saw today.
But couldn't give a damn in the world about me though.

I saw my cousin today who I haven't seen in like forever, we gave each other Christmas gifts, LOL it so late. School was ok I guess, one of my friends left early from one class and I heard everyone else talking shit about him, so I don't know whether or not to tell him about it or not. Things are getting so hard for me, it sucks, but oh well no one will do anything after I've asked so many times. Well tomorrow is Wednesday, the day I hate so much.


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Alive In A Daze

I've been in this daze all day I don't know why or what is it. Im talking to a freind who I haven't talked to in months. haha that made my day.

I have nothing to talk about today so whatever.

I found this webite about some missing child I thought it was very (I don't know how to say it) but if ya wanna see it, it's http://www.shawnhornbeck.com/



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The Guy Above

I feel so shitty today, but I still had to get on with the day, but it turned out to be so much fun, so we had to do this thing in church about what in God's Kingdom do we value or something, andd so I was going to do this thing about animals but the magazines that I had, had no good pictures of animals until I found this tarantula. I thought oh yeah, so I decided to cut it out and put it on my poster, with some other stuff. Finally, it was time to show everyone's poster, everyone laughed at mine it was so funny.

I got home and my little brother turned on the tv and put it on Supercross, it was so funny he was like drooling all over the tv about it, I laughing my ass off the whole time. I was havin fun today ~ ~ haha.

I found this off someone's blog so, ya know.


Bleeding for a friend

I had a liquid lunch today. I wish I could tell you I quaffed an Anchor Steam but instead I lay on my back watching red fluid dribble out of my left arm into a plastic bag.

A pal of mine is battling cancer and he asked for donations. It turns out that it’s extremely convenient to give blood credits in someone else’s name anywhere in the U.S. because the system is well organized. Greg lives near Dallas, but I walked just a few blocks from my office in downtown Houston to get to a blood center.

As I walked back I wrote a haiku.

My blood in a bag:
Strange gift for a friend in need.
Cancer really stinks.




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I Stand Alone

I'm so glad my mom and dad are talking like regular people again, Im been so bored today. My dad had to work today, and the rest of the weekend and on MLK, so ugh!



I worry about shit I shouldn't worry about.
I worry about shit I shouldn't care about.
But why?
Because I care.
And dont't think I don't.

"Don't Lie or you'll end up like Martha Stewart."


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Supervisor29

School was so fun today, I don't know why but it was better than other days, cuz its was always just boring.
I'm reading this website called Stop Clown Porn Know, its so gross. Anyway, my family still sucks, so I hope my dad will take me out somewhere this weekend, oh yeah I put $20 into that tsunami thing today at school, I thought well I'm not gonna spend it, I'll probably spend it on food, or loose it, so I was like shit why not, cuz you never know if you could be one of those people one day.

Ugh, I was buttin into my aunt's pay stubs on the internet she only makes around $1000 a month, I don't know how she lives, or how she is going to retire. The rest of my family isn't doing anything about her mental status like they should or at least like I would hope, I guess they'll just let her sit there and rot like everyone else. So, oh well I guess maybe they'll piss me off one day, then they'll do something.



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SOUTHCentral

I can't sleep again, so I guess I'll be here, I don't want to see my doctor because all she'll do is drug me up and I don't want to be on anymore medications. Therapy sucked, my therapist was a fucking pshycho, she, told me about these groups in school, she was like, "There's preps, nerds, crackheads, and goths,......... oh wait band losers!" I just sat there like, what the fuck. She said I needed to be in one of them I looked at this bitch like who do you think you are, she said things about me I wouldn't even let my own mother say about me. I was so mad I made my mom cry.

My mom told me my grandma was diabetic, I didn't know what to think, she stopped taking her cholesterol medication, I told her not to, but she did, so whatever I guess. I think this will be the only entry today for me.


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Miracle

Another say at school, it was OK I guess, for being a Wednesday.

I was at the nusersing home the other day and some old lady came up to me crying her ass off saying her husband didn't remember her. Of course I didn't know what in the world to do, but just to sit there and tell her to calm down and that it would be ok, her husband was right down the hall and I guess desired my aunt for some reason, I told her to go around but he grabbed her hand and wouln't let go, so then one of the nurses had to get him to let go.

They make me feel so bad in health class, so haha I guess I can be everyone's guinea pig.



I miss being there with you.
I miss seeing that special someone in my life.
I miss listeing to your heart beat against mine.
I miss seeing the beautiful you.
I miss your humorous and outgoing personality.
I miss your looks.
I miss your compassion.
I miss that feeling you always gave me.
I miss that special look you always gave me.
I miss the fun we once had.
I miss that care you onve gave like an angel from the sky.
I miss that fun we once had together in the rain.
I miss the fun we had at night.
I miss our arguments we once had.
I ask myself why and where did it go?


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"Go Fart"

That little title up there kept me laughing all day, ya know who said it so thanks I still remember it.

I feel so messed up, one minute I can be looney and crazy, the next tired and depressed, or drunk people even think I'm drunk, and then no clue of what. No one listens and I always tell them there's something wrong but oh well I guess, I can't even get my mom to believe me. School still so damn boring and tomorrow is Wednesday, I hate Wednesday's at school, it's so darn boring!!! Oops, I forgot my uncle was gone so it was like ya know one of those things, I guess I haven't been taking to well, so whatever. My dad been all wierd lately, he didn't even know who I was, so I don't know what to do.


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Deadwood Forest

I got back from an FFA meeting, crazy like always. School still so damn boring, damn counselors had to take all the fun out my day. I feel so sorry for my dad he gets up at 4 in the morning, leaves at 5 and doesn't come home until like 7 or 8. He came to pick me up the meeting and he looked like shit. Another day for me I guess, something happened at lunch that was so funny but I'd rather not say.

No one ever talks to me anymore I guess pissed them of with my outlandish humorous bitchy attitude about anything, oops I make fun of things I'm not really suppose to be making fun of, some people don't have a problem with it but some drive me nuts about it.

Wow, the county says I have a swimming pool, I never knew that.

Serenity

Hey,

Another day at my grandma's it was better than yesterday, my aunt called to say goodbye because she was leaving back to California, my other aunt couldn't make to my uncle's funeral because she had to back to the doctor because they just found out she has breast cancer. She could of been diagnosed earlier but all the hurricanes that hit Florida last year kept delaying her blood test. She doesn't make sense anymore so I don't know what to think about it, I hadn't seen her in three years but I hope everything works out. I seen so much of life, I can't read a damn book without crying my ass out. Its changed my attitude, people think im mean and bitchy so what? I just want a long ass vacation to anywhere, I'd do anything. Anyone wanna take me?

eXtasy

Don't fuck it up Mike!

Man what a wierd day, I was at my grandma's house all day with nothin to do, not sayin I don't like my grandma shes cool but I was bored as hell. I hope everything works out with someone.


I'm so happy 'cause today
I've found my friends ...
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you ...
We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care ...
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
'Cause I've found God

Im Worth Something!!

I'm worth $2,232,273.84! How much are you worth?

Regional Underground

I think this is so creepy I went to Walmart a while back, and so ya know just tryin to catch up with my dad and this guy who works at Walmart came up to me was like, "hey," I was like, "hi," but the weird thing about it was that he looked like this guy I knew who had a heart attack and died a few months earlier, I walked by stunned out of my mind. At the cashier other people where like, "Mike come here!" He cracked a few jokes and thought about that guy, it was so wierd, because it looked just like him and he acted just like him. You might think its stupid but I think its wierd.

SYNcoPE

School is so boring.

I just heard this siren 20 minutes ago it was scary, and theres a guy runnin down the next block with a gun haha what a night.

I have this big old flag in my room from my uncle and I don't what to do with it. I finally fell asleep ealier because of my stupid medicine kept me up since Tuesday. Im just real tired and beat right now, nobody could tell some people even thought I was on something, so haha start the rumors again.

A New Beginning

Today was my uncle funeral, but my family didn't want me to go, I didnt't say nothing but I was so pissed off because I had to go to school. School still so boring because of my schedule change, I see almost none of my friends and it sucks. I finally found a spot in my life to take it back part of it's here and at different places I go and have, but I still find things wrong, don't feel right, or just missing, I don't know why though.


This is like my little place of secrets buts its cool.

"I know you want what's on my
mind

I know it eats you up inside
I know, you know, you know

I am a man, a man
I'll give ya somethin' that ya won't
forget"

Hell

I just got back from school, new semester, new year, new schedule.
Was the shittiest day I ever had.
Boring Boring Boring

Annoyed out of my mind, couldnt find my friends, but im glad to be back because I'd rather be there than home

Today was my uncle's rossary thing, was it horrible, my other aunt started to endlessly bitch to me why her sister my other aunt didnt have the funeral in a church, I was like thats its in my head ,and my mom was ready to loose it, then she started to say its all because she doesnt go to church and bullcrap like that, and it just drove me mad. I feel sorry for her because she had that elctro-shock therapy and still has sideaffects of it and its gotten a lot worse and we dont know what to do with her because shes been goin on huge shopping sprees like buying a new BMW and a new house.whoa!!! thats just the begining.


" I run through the world
thinkin' 'bout tomorrow"

Hey,

Its me!! lol! just wanted to say hey to anyone reads this, email me im always here to help whatever.

Cya!