I found the light out
But I don't want to leave.

I'm back, so Tuesday my aunt from Florida, the one with Breast Cancer came, she looked good considering, then we went out to eat at some restaurant, the food could food could of been a little bit better, but I got to see her I didn't care, I haven't seen her in a couple of years. So, the other day was my birthday, didn't really do anything but stuff myself with cake. Then I went to my grandma's and went to the store, and came back and she fell down the stairs on the way up to her house, sorta ouch and funny at the same time. Anyway my dad is leaving for almost two months later this week, out to Iowa somewhere in the boonies, his company might get bought out, good or bad thing? Thursday my aunt from California is coming with her granddaughter who I have never met, oh what sweet FUN, I mean HELL that's gonna be, not that I wouldn't want to meet her, but the rest of the family acts like a bunch bitches all the time, but it's family

Fathers come in all shapes and sizes

Happy Fucking Father's Day!!!

 

I've been thinking about my grandpa, about why he left my grandma, about why he never came back, about why he never came to know his beautiful little daughter, or why he disappeared from everyone's world, or that he knows that my grandma has been dead for years. I think about that newspaper clipping that I have of your big shiny bald head, I think if that time I brought that clipping to school and a friend made fun of the newspaper ad in the back, which is forever etched in my head. I ask myself every night, after all these years, where did you go?

Okay, so FFA "Fun Day," is Saturday, I totally forgot about that, wonder if I should go?
Haven't really been doing anything just here listening to clock tick every night, again and again, I usally won't fall asleep until 5 or 6, it's all falling down now.

The alarm sounds. He hurries to get on the truck.
His mind is reeling at the endless possibilities.

He bails off of the truck with all of his armor in place.

JUST ANOTHER DAY AT THE OFFICE.

He waits at the door; he walks where the devil dances.

It is a total sea of orange. He watches with great respect as the orange waves come one after another.

The beauty of this.

He almost hates to fight it. But he knows that it will destroy him if he doesn't.

His battle is a tough one.

This living creature does not want to die.

It retreats, hiding in the walls, in the ceiling over his head, or in the floor beneath his feet.

He has it on the run, but he knows that it can come

back without warning. He must continue, he must kill this creature.

Finally he finds it, hiding in the attic.

He snuffs all life out of this beautiful, but deadly creature.

The battle is over; the warrior emerges victorious.

JUST ANOTHER DAY AT THE OFFICE.

바람
치는
Windstruck

I went to the baseball game today, it was so awesome, lol. It was against Toronto and we won 6-3, and if there are any Canadian readers out there, I must say your national anthem is beautiful. But before that some guy got hit in the chest with a ball, then he passed out because his heart rate went up a little, but he was ok and they, being the First Aid there, took him out to go and walk around and I didn't see him again, and I don't know what happened to him but I think he was ok. Okay so after that I went to eat with my dad, there were some weird and interesting people there at the restaurant.
But last night I was in Clear Lake for a little while and my dad wanted to go to Walmart, so ok I was like whatever for being as late as it was, but on the way to there, there is long strip of road which is almost pitch black and so all of a sudden my dad slams on the breaks and there is this little white and black thing wobbling in the road, it turned out to be a skunk, uh yeah I think you can figure it out about the smell of it, but it was funny.

I've been in this sorta, "crackhead," mood for a couple of days, it's weird, and I've been watching a bunch of Asian moves on some network called AZN, but whatever, I'm probably gonna come down harder than before.

Not much going on, my aunt from California and the other one from Florida, the one who has Breast Cancer are coming over next month. Just bored and watching La Crosse at 4 in the morning. My little brother spilled tea all over my mom today, it was funny.

Me and my mom got in a fight, wasn't pretty, I feel sorry for her. She took me to some museum at the airport, I forgot I had an obsession with planes, funny, I didn't want to leave.


Could I just say I like you?


1. Where did we meet?:
2. Take a stab at my middle name:
3. How long have you known me?:
4. When is the last time we saw each other?:
5. Do I smoke?:
6. Do I believe in God?:
7. When you first saw me what was your impression?:
8. My age?:
9. Birthday?:
10. Natural hair color?:
11. Color eyes?:
12. Do I have any siblings?:
13. Have you ever been jealous of me?:
14. What's one of my favorite things to do outdoors?:
15. What's one of my fav. things to do indoors?:
16. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
17. What's my favorite type of music?:
18. What is the best feature about me?:
19. Am I shy or outgoing?:
20. Would you say I am funny ha ha or funny sarcastic?:
21. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?:
22. Would you consider me a friend, an acquaintance, or a good friend?:
23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else? :
24. Have you ever seen me cry?:
25. If there were one good nickname for me what would it be?:
26. Are my parents still together?:
27. If I had broccoli stuck in my teeth would you tell me?:
28. Do I drink and/or do drugs?:
29. What is my worst fear?:
30. Are you going to post this and see what I say about you?:

I hadn't slept, I hope it won't be any as wild as 4 days again, lets just hope it gets better. My friend that I've known for awhile, and isn't one of the one's I mostly talk about, wants me to go to Mexico with her, of course I didn't know what to say.
Not much really going on.

For some reason or another I feel so betrayed by certain people...
Some of my acquaintance's go around talking in their public journals like Xanga about smoking pot and drinking and post about how fucking stupid their parents are trying to stop them, and all their other friends are posting on their site like if it's so fucking rad or something, it's so fucking stupid. I can't wait until school starts again in August.
Oh my aunt never went to the hospital, she had a small problem and went to the doctor.

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My friends can push my buttons, I'm glad I don't talk to them, they go around all depressed like if it's something to be proud or something, they call themselves, "Emo," or some shit like that. I'm just blowin off some steam.....

My aunt is in the hospital, she's like 85, no one knows what hospital she's at or if she's even in the hospital. My dad is going out of town again I think for a couple of months I don't know when though. Everything has been such a drag lately.

Oh, what a day, what a day, light my fire.
Down the way I go.
In a daze.
For never change.